briefing.

Today, although reluctant and a bit not feeling well, i dragged myself to the co-op briefing.

and fortunately, its nice, interesting and funny. even the slides is interesting. Nothing like what we had last Friday which is pure boredom and boredom. so you get the point on how terrible is that. our speaker is an actor, some other composer or whatever, and won some award in some huge event because if i recognize hearing about something, then its got to be pretty big coming from a person who don't watch local tv programs and reading newspapers.

we had fun clapping hands for people who came late too since he insisted that they walk up the stage. and every single time, people go through that stage, we clapped. Pretty fun to see some people enjoy the spotlight.



....

oh, i had the newest pizza from PizzaHut. *grins*

I love prawns. ~

I love mayonaise~

And it had both. What else can i say?

tick tock

now i remember what i want to say.

Cost and Management Accounting(CMA) literally killed my brain off. Its like add math all again but with less formula. I felt happiness swelling in my heart when i can finally get the answer when the question given confused me to no end.

so yea, i shall continue my CMA.

just another hectic wednesday

- there is a lot of things in my mind, no doubt plagued me and gets me just a little teary-eyed.

Today, I went to library and i am surprised on how much I missed it, just to sit there, reading, doing something or just flying in la-la land. believe it or not, i felt accomplished, even just a little. rather than being at home all day long and stare at the computer, doing nothing good.

...but library is the best if you go there early for you might have a chance to grab a table for yourself. Any later than 11, may you have luck searching for a place to sit.

again, i must say this, my holiday mood is not over yet.

so many things to do and i kind of dislike Wednesday because it seems like my workload seems to be due on Thursday. After a tiring day and reach home 7 something, the next thing you know, you have to get your homework started - and mind you, not in the do it slow and steady, do it or tomorrow be clueless.

p.s. Jelly is coming back^^. It's been a long long time since I saw her online in Skype. It makes me feel like there goes another Mel Mel who went missing...again.

p.s.s I may be just a little paranoid there but...oh well, when I am alone, my brains seems to think too much.

facade

The warm body behind, embracing him was nothing but an illusion and will fade away soon. The kindness shown was nothing but mere pretense. Enveloped by hugs and kisses, he keeps on wondered when will this facade ends.

As naive as he is, as delusional as he is, he wanted to stay in this dream. Facade or not, at the very least, he captured the sweet ecstasy in his hands - even for a very short moment.




~*~


I am planning to fill my own blog with random posts.

just a little wacko

I am once again lost myself with love for my boys. My beautiful, handsome boys...

...when I am suppose to be doing something more important such as starting doing the assignment or actually start flipping the textbook/notes instead of continue to drown inside my own fantasy world or reading numerous fanfics that are waiting for me. right now. calling desperately. moaning.

They are actually pretty persistent even after I repeatedly rejecting their kind offer.

"Cheryl. Read me. Read me first. Don't stop...there are so many chapters waiting for you."

~*~

You know, if one day I am not sick and twisted due to stress that is if I have any, it must be my mind that caused me to be like this. Brains are suppose to be working but they are working too aggressively on the wrong thing.

Finish my current obsession with CLAMP mangas. Will do so in another week to fully indulge myself in them again.

and is it just me or FMA:Brotherhood episode 8 is not out this week? I've been waiting and waiting and re-watch episode 7 just in case I have forgotten to watch it.

....alright. I have got to go. Those fanfics are calling me so passionately that I can't leave them alone. and I need to learn to tell myself this.

"YMY! Stop succumbing to their pleadings"

Two-timed feeling.

I am currently howling in laughter. Very quietly.


My stomach actually aches.


And I can't stop smiling after my laughter died down.


.....


I have some issues with me, vehicle, and college.


Get the point?


No? Never mind. Allow me to wallow in self-pity.

...random

Today's lunch is interesting and funny. We had some silly conversations and we laughed till our jaw hurts.

What conversation we had?

...


It's best if it's just between us.

P/S: My light yellow sleeping gown had large numerous blue spots everywhere. I went "Mummy! Why my pajamas so ugly already?!"

*sob*

My favourite pajamas is ruined.


...

Today is also the first time I was mistaken as studying hard when I in actual I am flying around in la-la land.

*insert evil laughs*

....

sorry for the random post.

Because I am an idiot.

*sniff*

CLAMP made me cry again.



I am beyond help.



*shall continue my crying session*


.....

and I love-hate evil Fuuma because the good Fuuma will never do that to Kamui. I must be twisted.

Shocking!

Shocking revelation!

My mum actually know tiny bit of Japanese! She learned it a little when she was working in a hotel but unfortunately forgotten all of it. *screams*

She remembered how to say thank you and the numbers(with the exception of 9 and 10). Maybe it wasn't anything special but for my mum it is since her proclamation of dislike for Japanese ...due to Japanese Occupation . And I always wondered where in the world my mum learned the word "Arigatou" from.

Wow.

Wouldn't it be good that she actually remembers everything and teach me?




P/S: Bought one slipper and one heel. Hopefully I can walk with that heel or else I will hit myself with a hammer.

Because I am troubled

Stupid requests is just plain irritating and stupid but the most idiotic one is me. I don't know whether its just me or what, depending on situation, I couldn't reject people when they are asking me to do something especially when they are damn persistent about it. I said once no, twice and when they keep on continuing bugging me about asking me help, pleading me even...that's when I hate my lenient idiotic self. Not to mention when those stupid requests came from a family member.

That is why I seldom trying to know what the problem they are having. I asked, you tell me and that's it. I am no Samaritan who understand your pain and all, although I may understand but I surely wouldn't help till the extent that makes me feel bad, reluctant and unwilling. Help is only granted on my on free will and any forcing and pleading will however make me feels irritated, annoyed and left a bad impression of you.


As I am trying to repeatedly ignore and refuse someone's request, I couldn't help but to feel guilty that I am very reluctant to help him and also a part of me is screaming "I don't want to do it!" Why can't people just ask what you wanted instead of going through lengths just for that?
Ask and you will be given. Although you have asked and you are not given, then you just have to settle it on your own.

There is always an alternative options.

If to get something from someone and you have to go through the pretense, making up memorize dialogues, dragging people along with your scheme of sweet coated words, sympathy, it would be better off that you don't obtain whatever you wanted to. What is the point?!





P/S: I need to make a to-do-list. I am always forgetting what I should do and delaying them.

Snippets of Convo

*dinner time*

Mum: Afterwards Chong Mei Soon ( a friend of mine in primary school and unfortunately didn't communicate anymore) will fight with Denmark.
Me: Chong Mei Soon? Wong Mew Choo is it?
Dad: Julia ah?
Mum: Chong Mei Soon!
Me: Chong Mei Soon is my friend oh.

*Mum thinks*

Mum: Yea. Wong Mew Choo.
Dad: Why don't you say Lau Pei Xi?
Mum: Wah! You remember your daughter's friend name woh!

That coming from my dad is brilliant. Even Kah Ann's name become 'Kaya' to him. Mum practically howled with laughter when she told me. I guess dad was probably eating kaya when he was talking about fetching me from Ann's house.

Wrong Timing

My nap time hour is way haywire.

I slept at 4 till 7.

I doubted I will have a good sleep tonight.

AR - not so important.

This post is all related to manga/anime. So don't bother reading it if it's not your cup of tea. Contained spoilers too but CLAMP fans should have read them already. So no problem there. I just need to angst a little here.

*sighs*

I know I hate reading the last chapter of Tokyo Babylon manga for a reason but I can't help to read them again and again until I actually lost count. It was sweet in the beginning and it just turned out to be so depressing in the end.

CLAMP is very well capable in making complicated but yet fantastic plots, cute cute things, beautiful artworks and not to mention blatantly obvious but not focused boy love. Tokyo Babylon is an example of that but despite of umpteenth time of reading I kept on asking myself 'why sad ending'? Even killing off Seishiro in x/1999 but leaves us readers a big suspense of 'I...you' from dying Seishiro to Subaru. I guess we will never know what's the word in the middle but I am guessing love. Why can't they be just like Touya and Yukito in Card Captor Sakura although they are not shown to be together officially (pretty obvious they are together) but hey at least no one is dying. My heart actually cries out for sweet Subaru and although Seishiro is being an evil, heartless, but dashing assasin, I can't help but still love him.

And....

Subaru-kun finally realized that he loves Seishiro! And Seishiro killed his sister and leaves him heartbroken and died innerly.

*facepalms*

I guess that's what fanfics are for, I suppose.

And I am currently not so patiently waiting for the next update of xxxHolic and Tsubasa Chronicle.

Behind Schedule

I am behind schedule.

Things to do building up. My own set dateline is forgotten and I haven't even started even a bit. Not even one single word. And damn it all, its bugging me when it wasn't supposed to be that important enough to do so. Not to mention, that blasted website is not letting me in for me to do my reference and to refresh my memory.

My agitated attitude probably comes from that superb fic I am reading. Freaking bombastic vocabularies and twisted plots that I can't help being sucked right into it. My artistic other me is kicking me in the gut and brain right now.

What does people have to do to get their brain a rest right after a tiring week of college?

Stop making me feeling guilty will you!

Lecturer and notes.

BIS lecturer is funny but not for his sense of humour but more to his way of speaking and actions.



He acted like a *cough* sissy *cough*


Classes with him may not be bad but due to the time which is 5 to 7, my brain couldn't really function well and in fact I am very annoyed that he kept on talking non-related things because I just wanted to go home. So it will be good to both parties if he finished whatever he needed to say and let us off early.

And I seriously hope that the photocopy shop will have less people. I just want to get my notes.

Itchy.

Financial Accounting 1 - 92
Business Economics - 90
Business Law - 81
Fundamentals of Marketing -82

I am pretty proud that I achieved good marks for them especially Business Law because I can barely understand what I am reading and there is no way I can memorize them. I just read and read and not understand. That's a taboo.

So far lectures are alright. We got lecturer who insisted we have original copies of textbook which cost us RM95 and that was like very expensive, we got lecturer that are very fierce and strict who just have many rules and don't even allow us to find her in her office without appointment and lecturer that loves to talk his past experiences about 'when I was 12 years old...' or 'I studied in a Chinese graveyards with the goats...' something like that. Still got one more lecturer and I am curious about whoever he or she is.


Today, because we had ample of free time, we went to Jaya Jusco Selatan.

However, today is pretty much terrible for me because my skin itchiness disease is back. It itches from the beginning till now and still itching. When I removed my stocking right after I reached home, my leg is all filled with red spots on the surface, that it looked so ugly and even after soaking my leg in hot water with salt, it felt sore as if I had been walking 10 hours straight non-stop and the floor felt like rocks. Mum have to go to the pharmacy to get some itchiness tablet for me or else I will die if it itches anymore tomorrow.

2nd semester timetable.

Behold is my second semester timetable.

Mon
8-10am Cost and Management Accounting (L)

Tues
10-12pm Business Communication (L)
4-6pm Introduction to Management and Organization Theory (L)

Wed
2-3.30pm Cost and Management Accounting (T)
5-7pm Business Information System (L)

Thu
11-12.30pm Business Communication (T)
2-3.30pm Introduction to Management and Organization Theory (T)
5-6.30pm Business Information System (T)


Frankly speaking, I kinda dislike classes that starts in the afternoon never mind the weather. I have to consider the availability of transport but I have no need to wake up at 6 in the morning except for Monday. Got pro's and con's. I guess that's fair. And did you see the 5 to 7 timing on Wednesday and the one till 6.30 on Thursday? I think my stomach will be calling urgently for refilling and by the time I reach home it's already dark. And let's cross our fingers that we can get that tutorial if not we have to stay till 8!


Results are not out yet and it is making me anxious.

And I realized I have read FMA manga before. I only remember when I saw Barry the Chopper there. Amazingly funny but insane fellow who loves chopping people up.