Dear Friends,

Wanna know how my first driving lesson went through?

Okay, the car engine died 4 times. First, when it's stationary to test how to use the clutch, brake and the accelerate pedal. The second time is when I bumped into the side road because i turn the steering too much ^^'. Third time and the fourth time is due to a motorbike and cars passing through and unable to pass. I am not sure if there is more engine dying coz I am a little panic to count all. Of course when the car and motorbike come and I was confused what to do and simply press any pedal. And tada~ engine died^^.

My steering handling is a disaster because I crossed handed. Actually at first, I didn't know that I already crossed hand but then in the middle of it only I saw my own hand crossed. He said that my next lesson will be teaching me how to handle steering. Hehe. I tend to turn the steering too much and almost bang on the taxi because, the taxi parked there and the Mywi car is next to it. I was like have to avoid taxi but can't avoid the Mywi much. Thank God I didn't bang any vehicle.

When I first learn how to turn, the car was moving like a snake. From left to right. Haha but it improves along the way. However, whenever I turn, my car went out of lane. Haha. I tried Gear 2 as well.

P/S: Mel, it seems like we have the same driving instructor. He told me that he teached you as well. Mind telling me his name? I didn't know. Haha. Eh, when he asked former school, you answer SKTM ah? He was actually referring to our secondary school you know. Haha.

I have found out that loans are not eligible for A-Levels.

And that is just what I wanted to say.

Whenever I update my blog, it's either I'm in a foul mood or I had a lot to think of.

I browsed around the net, finding out about the PTPTN loan whether it's available for A-Levels and of course I found a few blog about the students failed to get the PTPTN loan. It makes me even more afraid to choose A -Levels. What if I couldn't get the loan? I would have to continue my studies there since we have to pay for the first semesters.

I know my mum said she will take care of everything but I can't let her do all the hard job just because of me. She is having headache and refuse to check doctor. I am really scared. I don't want to make a regrettable decision either.

For once I thought that why aren't my family rich and does not need to think about the money for my educations. At least I wouldn't be in such a dilemma but still I'm happy with this family of mine.

I passed my Undang test yesterday after waited for my turn for about 5 hours more or less with 45/50. I'm glad^^

I have read a lot of great fictions lately because this is Christmas month. Many communities planned some fictions event and many great fanfics writer did an awesome job in their fictions. Most of the fictions are non-continuous and I couldn't keep my anticipation waiting for them to upload the next part. It was so thrilling and surreal as if I'm in there myself.

However, this Christmas month although with great fictions to read, the weather is making me feel gloomy. It's raining again. The dark cloud hiding the ever so sunny sun away, drip drops of water falling down making a loud noise of splattering sound on the floor and on to the roof. The sound of numerous water droplets falling down on to the Earth is getting louder each second as the rain is getting heavier. The cold wind blowing mercilessly giving me a chill, left me shivering and staring out of the gate, waiting for the heavy rain to stop.

I wish the rain would go away.
I wish I could SMS again too.
I wish to start studying again.

I have this weird feeling this whole December. A feeling that feels like I should take out a book and start studying. Not the books that I have learn during this last two years. I am actually anticipating to learn something new but this feeling will probably end when I actually started studying for real. Maybe it's a routine for every year at this time of month, we are rushing buying books and flipping through it. I guess habits hard to dies. However, studying doesn't mean going for driving lessons. It's totally different.

Now, since I got nothing to do and I am not playing games, I am going to draw. I haven't been drawing for a long time. I wonder if I still remember how to draw.

I am currently in RO( Ragnarok Online) fever.
I have to study my undang.
I have to help my mum.
I have to practice piano and finish theory.

But~ since it's RO fever. RO took most of the time of my day and night^^'

Dilemma

Hmmm...I went to UCSI today and asked about the courses provided there. My trial results enable me to go to A-Levels but the fees are worth crying for you know.It costs damn hell a lot of money people. Of course there is loan and everything but it doesn't mean I can't definitely get it or something and it's just A-Levels. I haven't go to the main course yet!I am thinking about taking Form 6 since it's cheaper but the grading requirement for Form 6 is higher than that in A-levels. Not to mention that Form 6 is very hard like everyone who went through Form 6 told me about it. Even though in SPM level, I can barely catch up with the syllabus.

Ahhh~ Life is just so damn complicated sometimes especially when it comes to deciding career and taking care of the pocket. *pats pocket*

Somebody tell me what should I do? With this slow brain of mine, do you think I can catch up in Form 6???