Muses

X-posted from my LiveJournal

ASDKLHJLHFGAAADA!!!

My muse is kicking in at a wrong time...especially when finals are creeping so near now and being me, Queen of Procrastination as usual did nothing but reading storybooks - note the S - and having multiple AsuCaga( Gundam Seed) snippet of scene I wanted to write for my currently ongoing fanfic which I had abandoned until yesterday instead of studying. Phew. Who ever thought I can finally manage to update it. It was actually half-way done, so no sweat there in cutting most of the parts and adding in some new ones and finally proof-read to get rid of those unbelievably obvious mistakes.

Frankly speaking, I am currently very scared of writing something for that fiction. It was just one wrong step and I found myself in a pinch. No actual plot as usual but this time its taking a toll on me. I am constantly searching for some ideas in my head to somehow make that story flows correctly, un-lamely (ignore this non-existent of this word, thank you) and of course in just the way I wanted it to be that I am not too sure of it either. I got the scenes and sometimes, dialouges ready in my head and will be reciting them constantly so that they don't ran away from my mind later but what's lacking is just where is these scenes heading to? What specific occasion is happening in the story that causes these scenes to appear?

*sigh*

I noticed not much updating has been done in my usual blog (BlogSpot), so although it's not related to my so called usual life rambling issue, I am going to copy paste it anyway.