Another Blah.

I have changed from computer addict to TV addict. An accomplishment that should not be proud of. I have watch TV non-stop the whole day and night for few days already and I didn't even online more than an hour.

Mum is becoming worried I will get crazy if I don't get out of the house since I didn't go outsince the beginning of my third day holiday. Well, she is the pot calling the kettle black. It was only till yesterday I went to Tesco Extra and today Petaling Street for less than an hour. Too crowded! For a person that is directionally challenged, Petaling Street is not a good place to go because without my father leading and my mum behind me, I think I don't where I am heading to. Every single road looked the same to me.

Weather is extremely hot.

I still got last episode of Devil Desciple that I haven't watch.

I am bored.

Blah.

I've received e-mail and SMS from Wireless KL saying that I registered for it. I was baffled. Since when in the world people know my e-mail and my hand phone number at the same time without me registering at the first place?! I don't remember knowing such a website to begin with! Weird. I only remember give my hand phone number in public is the bank and Pizza Hut (for survey purposes).

And...

My hand phone keep on losing contact numbers even though I have already saved it before. There are few I received anonymously but I think I know that number but I just don't know who. I must be either blind or the phone got something wrong.

Ramblings.

Wee~

I finally finished decorating the mini Christmas tree thought I said I won't be doing it this year.^^
Holiday is going to end soon and next year I am officially studying Degree if everything is alright, somehow a part of me is excited of the new things I am going to learn minus Accounts which I dislike with a passion or anything to do with calculation, but there is another part of me is reluctant because I knew it won't be easy. Just thinking about Accounts already make me dizzy and feel like crying. It makes me want to go back to high school and indulge myself in the world of Science once again. I missed Biology and Chemistry and...maybe just a little bit of Physics.

This holiday I did nothing but to enjoy myself at home every single day, even though I promised I will start studying. I have been watching funny parts of Yoru moment in "Shugo Chara" again and again for so many times^^.

*enters la-la land*

Now also busy watching 'The Gem of Life'. No, more like watching snippets of it XD.

And I wonder, do I really sound like my mother on the phone? Because every single time I answer the house phone, they go "Hello, Pat ah?" (the very infamous dialogue) and I will answer "Please wait". Some were good enough to say Sorry but some will just "Oh". Worst still, before I can ask them to wait while I call my mother, they just started to talk about things that they are supposed to talk to my mother to me.

I wish you all an early "Merry Christmas" just in case I am not updating.

New Teddy Layout

Tada~

A white layout for a white Christmas^^; not in M'sia though and any other countries that doesn't snow. What a waste.

After so many attempts of changing my layout, I finally did it. For many reasons, some of the layout codes seems to hate me really, everything went haywire. This layout is very plain except for the very cute header. I originally wanted something brown but the codes are amazingly confusing that my head and my eyes hurts by just looking at them. Not to mention that Nuffnang Code is not working and I have no idea why but thank God, everything is fixed^^

Lately, all thanks to Papaya's recommendation about Shugo Chara, I have been watching them until 4 in the morning everyday. Yesterday, I finally gotten caught by my mother around 4 something in the morning when she woke up and of course as usual, I get my deserving scolding. But it's worth it actually. The show is so cute, especially kitty Yoru. I turned into mush of goo whenever he appears and showing his mischievous behaviour and cute kitty voice. Nya~ The other characters is very cute as well^^

I am a real sucker when it comes to cute, adorable things. Especially it's related to animals like puppy, kitty and rabbit. (x.x)

I am so hardworking in writing blog.


You know, out of so many nicknames I have, this is the first time my 29 years old cousin asked my almost 2 years old niece to call me "Rabbit Jie Jie". Of course, she can only call me Jie Jie, thank God for that.

I asked my cousin sister, why call me Rabbit?

You know what she replied me?

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Because I looked like one.


*sweat dropped*

I looked like a rabbit?!

I watched Twilight today.

I found the staring scenes between Edward and Bella very amusing. Couldn't stop smiling all the time considering I can't laugh at how obvious Edward is staring at Bella. He could be more discreet you know, like staring at her from the corner of his eyes instead of just stare so obviously.

Then the "You are beautiful" part. The glittering is so weird and very fake.

And the best part is when they first introduced Carlisle! I saw the pictures that he is handsome but when he appears is even better. XD

Came back, ate dinner and slept almost immediately. Too tired. I haven't recharged my energy at all until two hours ago.

My exams are over.

Finally, I can relax and stay at home. I really don't want to go out.

So tired.

Now I should enjoy myself and starts to get my writing muse back.

Tomorrow having Moral Studies.

I haven't finish reading!

My brain is already stuck when its just afternoon. The words are so small and hard to understand and I can't wait for the exam to finish tomorrow.

Then I will be having Film and Arts Appreciation and Office Application on the 11th and 12th. Both also haven't read at all. I think I am going to have a tough day lying ahead of me.

Yippee.

I feel great mainly for two reasons.

First, we finally finished our Film & Arts Assignment today and passed it up. The first group too considering we have exam next week. I practically rush everyone urgently. 89 pages including content, etc. That is like the thickest assignment we ever did.

I can actually start, yes, unfortunately start, not continue my study for final. Finally can get rid of my books away from those green mosses that are starting to grow on them, then you can imagine how long I never touch them. I want it over soon. I want to relax, do nothing, have fun without thinking about assignment or exam. I want to become a sleeping pig. A full time sleeping pig!

*grins*

Second, I finally have my hair cut which I dreaded since last few weeks. The weather is so "Cooling" - Mark the sarcasm there - that it is torturing. My head feel so heavy! Now it's much lighter and.....shorter. *roll eyes* Duh. Do you see people go for a hair cut and have their hair longer?

So its basically shorter than before. Not much but still shorter. Much lighter and I am way happier.

I hate....

...insomnia. Really.

Sleeping at 2 yesterday is already abnormal enough for normal people and yes I know I am not that normal when it comes to sleeping. Since I need to get up early to get something done today, I was hoping sleeping at 2 will make me able to wake up early. Mind you, I sleep at 3 usually.

But yesterday, sleep doesn't come easy to me. Wait. Sleep doesn't come at all until 5.30 and I had a seemingly ridiculous dream which I even alter it in the process and then I get a scolding from my mum because I told her the truth I slept at 5.30. Not like it's my fault to begin with. When they don't want to let you sleep, there's nothing you do about it.

But then I manage to wake up at 8.20. Went out for about one hour plus. Came back now, eyes tired, my black coffee is on the table and I have no intention to sleep back. I thought of lots of things yesterday night. Probably not important.

As usual, ideas were plaguing my head and I was busy making out dialogues for my newly continuous fan fiction which I really intend to update today but I decided not to. I realized I dug my own grave on 22nd of November when I actually posted it up. Too late to back out. After making out dialogues and plots (if there is any) inside my head, I am still very wide awake and I thought of so many things.

The first thing I thought of is two saddest memory inside my head. You remember people always say "Forgive and forget"? True is true, easy to say but very hard to do it. You can't possibly to just forget everything sad and happy things that happened to you. The first saddest memory was few years back. The sad feeling was slow and not immediate. It's like having a knife and slowly carve it in your heart. You didn't know what exactly you are hurting but it's there until its too late. It hurts, like feeling betrayed, confused, lost and I just wanted answers. The answers came though but I am hurt beyond compare. I forgive whatever that inflicted the pain on me but I can't forget. That's the very first emotional pain I had.

The second one is this year. Exactly when I don't remember. It was different from the first one. While the first one is slow, the second one is so fast that you have no idea what hits you. I clearly don't. It was like having a knife stab on your heart before you even know it. The effects are immediate, tears just starting slowing and by the time I realize, I haven't cried so hard and due to personal things for so long. It's usually watching a drama or an anime that makes me cry but that was different. I never cried so hard, and so long as the tears wouldn't stop. I am so silly of thinking "This is probably what they feel when they were being dumped by girlfriend or boyfriend". Not like I would ever know how it feels but it hurts, betrayed not so. The only thing I can do is cry and avoid my brother when he came in. But the second time feels better since I have a friend and my mother to talk with. I remembered the first one, I don't dare to talk to my mother and I only have God to talk to. Thank God for that.

Still, forgive yes. Forget no. It will always be a thorn inside my heart, once provoked, still hurts.

Then I remembered about how I meet the Food Gangs and that include Banana considering I am the main reason he is nicknamed Banana. We were most probably talking about bananas then, if not how to explain the sudden nickname?

College is a new thing and I never thought I will ever get a friend there and in the first day too. And I am not the one who start first, no surprise there but it's a big accomplishment. Dad still tease me "What other friends she got except those 4?" *the one I always go out with* then Mum "Still have three friends?" *college friends*. Having those words coming from my father, who too, part of anti-social is not good.

Much better now. I got Hui Xian and Kah Yan as friends too.

From a person who slept for only 3 hours, this has got to be the longest post ever and I don't even want to update but since my brother gave me something to, I have no choice but to on the computer. Since I already on it, why not use it?