I don't understand why my mother keep on asking me whether I wanted to change course to science since she knew I don't like Account. Since she said I get good results for my Science subjects, I should change and get a scholarship. My father asked me whether I want to try applying for UKM. My brother? He just randomly asked me to become a doctor, or a teacher and he is the first person who make the whole Accounting and Finance into my mind. my mom even asked me how about lawyer.

I was like "Will you all just leave me alone? I've been studying all these subjects that I don't like for so long and I am trying to let go of all my favourite Science subjects and even paid for the fees, why are you asking me this now?!" Everyone knew I don't like Account and anything that is non-related to Science but why can't they just accept my decision?! If it weren't for our so darn poor financial problems, I would have just go to A-Levels or other college that provide other courses that I am interested in.

I was so damn sure I couldn't get good results for my SPM and I finally gave up A-Levels and went for Foundation which is cheaper but now they are asking me whether I wanted to change. Why didn't they ever consider what am I thinking. I meant I wouldn't mind if you say why not you just go for A-Level when I am still considering to go either A-Level or Form 6. She said it's up to you but deep inside I know she doesn't have the money to let me go A-Level and let me to study the Pharmacy course and she even said consider the Form 6 and yet saying that Form 6 is waste of time and she is old and just wanted me to graduate fast and work. Because of that, I considered Accounting and decided to take it since it's opportunity to get a job is higher.

Just as I slowly want to let them go, they keep on haunting me back. I just wish they stopped discussing this with me. I do not want to give up something that I decided to take and I will never will.