Whenever I update my blog, it's either I'm in a foul mood or I had a lot to think of.

I browsed around the net, finding out about the PTPTN loan whether it's available for A-Levels and of course I found a few blog about the students failed to get the PTPTN loan. It makes me even more afraid to choose A -Levels. What if I couldn't get the loan? I would have to continue my studies there since we have to pay for the first semesters.

I know my mum said she will take care of everything but I can't let her do all the hard job just because of me. She is having headache and refuse to check doctor. I am really scared. I don't want to make a regrettable decision either.

For once I thought that why aren't my family rich and does not need to think about the money for my educations. At least I wouldn't be in such a dilemma but still I'm happy with this family of mine.